Senior Project

One of the hardest things about the senior project is motivation. Sure, it is a subject I love and adore and something I want to do for the rest of my life... but it's hard! It is so difficult! I'm ashamed to admit I'm a little scared to call Beacocks about my piano lessons because I know it's going to be difficult since I learned in a way that is not necessarily correct.
Sometimes I feel like giving up. But there's a few things that keep me motivated:
1.) What would *my best friend* think of me quitting?
I put *my best friend* and refrained from using their name on the internet for the sake of safety. There are weird people on the web.
Anyway, I don't think I would be able to take knowing that this person is disappointed in me. I have upset this person a lot and even probably irritated them and driven them to insanity at times. But I know they are always there for me. This person knows I love music as much as I do. I've quit before and I just know that if I quit they'll be disappointed.
2.) Senior Project grade and graduation
I want to graduate. It's as simple as that. Second senior year is no fun and I know it will be hard to explain to my kids in the future if I have to do it a third time.
3.) Success is the courage to try. Every time I want to quit I picture my choir teacher saying this. Because usually when a mistake is made in choir or when I'm practicing after school, it's what he says. And, as the above mentioned friend once told me - when you tell yourself something enough or you think it enough, you'll believe it.

So... I'm not quitting. It's difficult. Es MUY dificil. But, I have to keep going. Have to. I always quit things. Track. quit. Science Olympiad. quit. Basketball. quit after the first two practices. Even art, I quit for a long time because I didn't think my art was good enough.

Success is the courage to try. I'm going to haul trousers (my mom created that phrase) and work like crazy.

:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=evpeyx-rqBQ
Hooray for music

I don't think I need anymore food for a few days.

I am still stuffed from last night's thanksgiving dinner. This year we had stuffed turkey breast (stuffed with mushrooms and pancheta) mashed potatoes with a little mayo and Parmesan cheese mixed in, salad with home made blue cheese dressing stuff and bacon, rolls, cornbread and andouille stuffing and for dessert, pumpkin pie :)
It was a pretty good thanksgiving. I liked the turkey more this year than last year. My dad does the turkey different every year. I guess it's kind of a tradition. I think last year he fried it. One year he barbequed it. One or two years I think he baked it like most people do. But this year was my favorite. I don't remember the thanksgiving from when we lived in monroe, but my dad insists that was the best turkey year.
Today is black friday and I'm not doing anything :) I dare not venture into the wild abyss that is shopping. If you are or did, I admire your courage.
I'll just stay home and clean my room and paint. Maybe study some SAT book.

Yeah.

Forever alone. Haha

:)

Happy Thanksgiving!

one of the testimonies I received at my baptism 9 months ago. Cute little kid in my old ward.

Getting my medallion this sunday :)

Already way involved in Relief Society.

BYU interview with bishop done.

things are looking up :)

I would kind of love to be in primary, this paper is one of the reasons why :)

BREAK! :D

I am so happy it's thanksgiving break now. No homework, no rude people at school, no sitting at school for 5 days! So... I'm playing world of warcraft and drinking hot chocolate. What can I say? I'm a pro at vacationing :) Now, if only there was some snow...

Books

agh! This book is so amazing! I don't want it to end! I'm on page 374 of Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins. This series has been amazing. It's been absolutely riveting. I almost don't want it to end, but it is just so freaking amazing! On the page previous to the one I just read, I jumped up and yelled "WHAT??????" I don't want to post any spoilers on here though because I hate when I am reading a good book and someone ruins the end. I must get there myself so I will respect other fellow readers who must as well.
Anyway, there's only one more chapter left... now what do I read? I don't have the fourth Eragon book... :( Sad Ashleigh.
This was such an amazing series, I really recommend it to anyone! It was fantastic. Absolutely stunning. Really.
Hm... now what to read....
I really like the idea of this site... maybe I'll start using it more! :) Because I really honestly have no idea what to read next. Try it and tell me what you think.
http://www.whatshouldireadnext.com/

No such thing

There is no such thing
no such word as perfection
on this earth we know

maybe there's a place,
but that place I don't yet know-
where there will be some.

For now I'll just wait
and carry on with my life
living best I can.

Gonna go back to wearing ribbons in my hair.

It's kind of my style. I used to be known for wearing ribbons in my hair. I used to show them off to my best friend. "Hey Ashleigh, you look really pretty today" "I KNOW RIGHT? IT'S BECAUSE OF MY NEW RED RIBBON! LOOK! LOOK!" I love ribbons. And pinning my hair up with boatloads of bobby pins or having it super curly and pinned in some places.
Ever since I stopped wearing my ribbons, I haven't felt the same. I think admittedly I sort of miss them :)
Gonna go to wal mart tomorrow. Buy a new curling iron and some ribbon. Red ribbon, because that's my favorite :]
I love this song by the way, I found it from a friend on Deviantart (a NEW FRIEND by the way! :D) and I adore it. The lyrics are gorgeous and the violin at the end is amazing. Love love love it.
Can't stop listening to it :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=quwJvKT8HWc&feature=related

mmmm peanut butter granola bars (Random post)

listening to Adele while munching on some peanut butter and chocolate chip granola bars. There are a few things on my mind. Finished a BYU scholarship application. Finished my homework. Now... sleep? I was way too tired today. I don't know why? Maybe I need to drink more water.
That's my answer to every health problem I come across.
Hm. I wonder what initiatories are? I know the relief society women do them in the temple... I just don't know what they are.
And then there's this boy here in lil ole washington. Well, I'll pass on boring you with my silly girlish weirdness. Frankly, if I were reading this post I would already be a little bored.
It's just one of those days. I worked really hard all day. I'm very proud of the work I've done. But I'm just really tired. I miss my friends, but not in the weird clingy way it used to be. I've made some new friends this quarter. But, still.
I miss the Parp? crew. Whenever I wear my parp shirt (now, only for PJs or running)- I think of them. :)
Hm, I wonder if I can get a dress for church for really cheap by this sunday. I need a change. A little bored with my church wardrobe. But then again, I shouldn't really worry about fickle things like boys and clothes. But I guess I kinda deserve a little break after scholarship and college applications today.
I don't know where this post is going. Sooo....


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yeah. Love you guys. :)
And Adele. And peanut butter.
yeah.

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Yep. It's official. I'm ghetto.

I just printed my sheet music onto graph paper because I couldn't find any printer paper. However, I found "I saw three ships" that Jon Schmidt arranged so I am VICTORIOUS! HA! :D

Passed all my classes this quarter

I am so happy I did. I had quite a bit of catching up to do in Algebra 2 on thursday. I stayed after school and got my grade up. Over the course of 2 and a half hours after school that day, my grade went from an F (57%) to a B! Of course Spanish: A English: A and Advo: B. I'm so happy I passed all my classes! The only credits I need to make up to graduate from high school now are: .5 occupational ed credit, and 1.5 history credits (.5 sophomore history and 1.0 senior history)
And then I'm eligible for graduation. But, those classes will be spread out through the year. This quarter I have .5 credit for Algebra 2, .5 credit for Spanish 1, .5 credit for CWI, I'm not sure if Advocacy earns you a credit...
we'll see. But, I'm getting on track to graduate this year!!!