I was just thinking about investigators I've seen come and go in the church and in our ward. Then I started thinking about when I was an "investigator" and I thought about my poor poor friend. I asked so many questions and a lot of really difficult ones too. I feel like I was more an interrogator than an investigator. I asked so many questions. The last time I asked him a question I felt really bad because for some reason it didn't get to him until 11:30. I sent it at 10:00. I felt horrible and angry when he sent me a text at 11:30. I was like "WHO IS WAKING ME UP!!!" I had been asleep for an hour. My question was about whether or not we have a Heavenly Mother...
Anyway I feel really bad because I don't much like excessive texting. But, I have proven myself to be a hypocrite because I bugged him so much with my texting. I am so angry at myself because I constantly demanded attention from him and I think that's part of the reason we're not as close friends as we used to be. I feel really bad because I put him through so much crud and texted him mercilessly until he answered. I was impatient and stubborn and rude. I feel so bad. I told him I wouldn't text him anymore because he said he didn't like texting anymore. That was like a week ago I think. And I've had to stop myself several times because I need to grow up and restrain my childish ways. I need to be more patient and I've been doing that lately. I feel a lot more mature. But I still feel guilty that I irritated him and made him so mad. I know he's forgiving but I feel like I've taken advantage of that way too much and that was very childish of me.
I'm venting can you tell?
I'm getting my patriarchal blessing in two weeks. Since the night I scheduled it, I have been a lot better about being more mature. I've learned a lot and met a ton of people, including women from relief society whom I've befriended who are more than 30 years older than I. I still have problems. Everyone does, and I feel like the problems I still do possess will be cleared up in 2 weeks. Or maybe at least a resolution to my problems will show itself a little.
It's really hard not to text him. Considering I used to do it everyday, pretty much on an hourly basis and then I quit it all of a sudden. It's addicting and that kind of scares me. I got so involved in something that means so little. Texting is so impersonal and I don't really like it.
I told him I would stop and I have and will continue to not text him. But I asked him if he would just call once in a while and maybe even just say hi or something. I don't get to see him very often and he's a good friend of mine. Pretty much like a big brother.
Growing up is tough and I feel like it's not gonna get any easier. But lately it's been happening more and I feel like it is happening for a reason. I don't believe in coincidences.
Jul 31, 2011
fix you
I absolutely love this song. It beats Fireflies. It is absolutely my favorite song. Coldplay is just plain amazing. If someone were to take me to a coldplay concert I would be the happiest person in the world.
This song made me cry the first time i heard it. It's called "fix you" and as always, the music video is spectacular. Coldplay always does fantastic music videos.
Here it is, just copy and paste the url or follow the link.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JI-o25K6B-E&ob=av2e
This song made me cry the first time i heard it. It's called "fix you" and as always, the music video is spectacular. Coldplay always does fantastic music videos.
Here it is, just copy and paste the url or follow the link.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JI-o25K6B-E&ob=av2e
Jul 23, 2011
memorizing
I know that in this church, you do a LOT of memorizing. Especially during the year in seminary for scripture mastery. During the couple months I was in seminary, I memorized all of the scripture mastery but 4. I've memorized the 13th article of faith for personal progress (Knowledge required value experience #3) and I know in Knowledge under the elective value experiences there is one choice to memorize 2 of your favorite hymns, which I am working on. In Faith, you can memorize and recite "The Living Christ" which sounds like a challenge, so I want to do that too. There are a ton of other things to memorize in personal progress as well.
I am really good at memorization because I like to go over and over and over things in my mind. I have also found an easier way of memorization. Since you have a lot of memorizing ahead of you in seminary, personal progress, and in preparation for a mission should you choose to go on one... I'll share it with you.
Yesterday I was memorizing the 13th article of faith. That is this year's mutual theme. It's also a required value experience under Knowledge. (#3) Here's what I did to memorize:
WBIBHTCBVAIDGTAMIWMSWFTAOPWBATWHATWHEMTAHTEATITIAVLOGROPWSATT
That is the first letter of each word in the article. It's sort of a cheat sheet that will help pave the way in memorization. I found that once I mastered this, I was able to recite the article without the "cheat sheet" much more quickly than if I hadn't made it.
Now, I just took a few months of the Doctrine and Covenants course in seminary. So I know there are quite a few REALLY REALLY long scripture mastery scriptures. (Like, Joseph Smith History. Which I passed off. woot woot :) For these, just use the first letter of each word as I showed you above and highlight small chunks of the scripture mastery at a time until you've memorized that chunk. Then move on to the next chunk when you feel confident, adding the part you've already learned.
I hope this helps! I know it really helped for me.
I don't know exactly where I am in personal progress just yet, but it looks like I'll be finishing by the end of August. Craziness!
In other news, I've been writing to a missionary who is currently in Sao Paolo, Brazil. (Portugese speaking mission) He is having the time of his life. He loves Sao Paolo. He's already had some challenges with members and inactive members but he says he is just so happy to help them. He is a really great example to me. He is a great example of honoring his priesthood and doing good unto all men. He's been writing to me and updating me on several people he's spoken to or whatever. It's really cool. He's a great missionary. I can't wait until he comes back but I am so glad that he has this experience right now. It is just so valuable to him and the brothers and sisters around him. This is how he closed the last time he wrote me:
Esta semana eu li Jacó e eu gosto de quando Jacó explica a importância dos profetas. Por exemplo, em versiculos Jacó 4:4. Muitas pessoas aqui não entendem que nós precisamos um profeta hoje e não entendem o que um profeta é. Mas eu sei que nós temos profetas denovo, que como Deus chamou profetas nos tempos antigos que José Smith foi chamado a ser um profeta, e AGORA nós temos um profeta chamado Thomas S. Monson. Nós temos profetas então nós podemos ser guiados atrevés esta vida e ter felicidade e saber o que Deus quer que nós fazemos. Esta obra é dificil as vezes, mas como é diz em Jarom 1:3, que muito obra precisa acontecer aqui.
[This week I read and I like Jacob when Jacob explains the importance of the prophets. For example, in verses 4:4 Jacob. Many people here do not understand that we need a prophet today and do not understand what a prophet is. But I know we have prophets again, that as God called prophets in ancient times that Joseph Smith was called to be a prophet, and now we have a prophet named Thomas S. Monson. We have prophets, then we can dare to be led this life and be happy and know what God wants us to do. This work is hard sometimes, but as is said in Jarom 1:3, that much work needs to happen here.]
Thank goodness for google translator! :)
I am really good at memorization because I like to go over and over and over things in my mind. I have also found an easier way of memorization. Since you have a lot of memorizing ahead of you in seminary, personal progress, and in preparation for a mission should you choose to go on one... I'll share it with you.
Yesterday I was memorizing the 13th article of faith. That is this year's mutual theme. It's also a required value experience under Knowledge. (#3) Here's what I did to memorize:
WBIBHTCBVAIDGTAMIWMSWFTAOPWBATWHATWHEMTAHTEATITIAVLOGROPWSATT
That is the first letter of each word in the article. It's sort of a cheat sheet that will help pave the way in memorization. I found that once I mastered this, I was able to recite the article without the "cheat sheet" much more quickly than if I hadn't made it.
Now, I just took a few months of the Doctrine and Covenants course in seminary. So I know there are quite a few REALLY REALLY long scripture mastery scriptures. (Like, Joseph Smith History. Which I passed off. woot woot :) For these, just use the first letter of each word as I showed you above and highlight small chunks of the scripture mastery at a time until you've memorized that chunk. Then move on to the next chunk when you feel confident, adding the part you've already learned.
I hope this helps! I know it really helped for me.
I don't know exactly where I am in personal progress just yet, but it looks like I'll be finishing by the end of August. Craziness!
In other news, I've been writing to a missionary who is currently in Sao Paolo, Brazil. (Portugese speaking mission) He is having the time of his life. He loves Sao Paolo. He's already had some challenges with members and inactive members but he says he is just so happy to help them. He is a really great example to me. He is a great example of honoring his priesthood and doing good unto all men. He's been writing to me and updating me on several people he's spoken to or whatever. It's really cool. He's a great missionary. I can't wait until he comes back but I am so glad that he has this experience right now. It is just so valuable to him and the brothers and sisters around him. This is how he closed the last time he wrote me:
Esta semana eu li Jacó e eu gosto de quando Jacó explica a importância dos profetas. Por exemplo, em versiculos Jacó 4:4. Muitas pessoas aqui não entendem que nós precisamos um profeta hoje e não entendem o que um profeta é. Mas eu sei que nós temos profetas denovo, que como Deus chamou profetas nos tempos antigos que José Smith foi chamado a ser um profeta, e AGORA nós temos um profeta chamado Thomas S. Monson. Nós temos profetas então nós podemos ser guiados atrevés esta vida e ter felicidade e saber o que Deus quer que nós fazemos. Esta obra é dificil as vezes, mas como é diz em Jarom 1:3, que muito obra precisa acontecer aqui.
[This week I read and I like Jacob when Jacob explains the importance of the prophets. For example, in verses 4:4 Jacob. Many people here do not understand that we need a prophet today and do not understand what a prophet is. But I know we have prophets again, that as God called prophets in ancient times that Joseph Smith was called to be a prophet, and now we have a prophet named Thomas S. Monson. We have prophets, then we can dare to be led this life and be happy and know what God wants us to do. This work is hard sometimes, but as is said in Jarom 1:3, that much work needs to happen here.]
Thank goodness for google translator! :)
Jul 20, 2011
Today is a great day. I'm so happy to have to gospel in my life. My mom will come home this evening from her procedure and we picked her some flowers :) I'm writing to a missionary who is in Brazil right now. He is really enjoying it and he's really getting a hang of portuguese. He writes half of the letters in portuguese and I have to use google translator for most of it. It's really cool though. I miss him a lot, but he's doing really well. Can't wait until he gets home though.
Anyway, I'm going tubing with my YW group in a combined group with the Young Men. Down the columbia river! I am really excited. Its sunny and nice outside too.
I'll write more soon. I have lots to say.
Anyway, I'm going tubing with my YW group in a combined group with the Young Men. Down the columbia river! I am really excited. Its sunny and nice outside too.
I'll write more soon. I have lots to say.
Jul 16, 2011
art blog
my new art blog! Hopefully im better about uploading things onto this one than I am about it on Deviantart. haha probably not.
http://heypianoman.blogspot.com/
check it out!
http://heypianoman.blogspot.com/
check it out!
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