Anyway...
I'm writing a song, or rather, composing a song. For piano, with a little bit of vocals. Want to hear my work in progress? Click this link to go to my youtube channel...
http://www.youtube.com/user/songbird1618/videos?flow=grid&view=0
Last time I was on here and posted was January 2nd. For those of you who have read my blog before or know me personally, you know that my mom had stage 4 cancer. On January 7th, 2013, my mom lost her battle with stage 4 metastatic breast cancer that had spread throughout her body. It has been hard. But I have been handling it with grace and trying to do things to heal my heart. I feel like in the short space of a month since her passing, I have grown a lot and I have seen tremendous changes in myself and my life.
Obviously, life is hard without a mom. I will go ahead and admit that right now. Don't get me wrong, my dad is doing a spectacular job and he has been very inspirational to me. I know this has been hard on him. The thing is, there is a very empty hole in my life now. I am very lucky to have a lot of mother figures who I admire and who truly care about me... but even though they are so strong in my life, nothing can obviously replace my mom. I haven't actually gone to grief counseling but I honestly don't need it. I have been counseling with my bishop and I have been very open with my close friends and grown ups in my church and all of my fears and concerns have been comforted. In my opinion, that has been better than any counselor I have ever gone to.
Also, my missionary boyfriend and I ended it. I actually was really not all that upset about it after the first day. I have more important things in life than crying over a guy who wrote me a cruel email to breakup with me.
Now that I broke the bad news, here are the good things that have happened since I last posted...
-I successfully turned in my papers for a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of latter-day saints. I turned them in last tuesday night, so I should get my call next week sometime. If not, then definitely the week after.
-I got a new calling as the ward chorister. I lead the congregational hymns in sacrament meeting every sunday. It's surprisingly harder than I thought, but it's so fun and I really get to feel the spirit. I absolutely love it. And I'm still the Young Single Adult leader.
-I got a promotion of sorts at work. I moved from the MET (support team) to the floor. I will get more hours working on the floor and it's really a lot of fun. I enjoy the times I have gotten to go out on the floor so far. Plus, now I have register training and I can interact with customers more often.
-I went to a YSA dance the other night and had so much fun. I danced with two very sweet guys. I'm now friends with both on facebook and tomorrow night after work I am going on a date with one of them. I'm very excited to go. I haven't been on a date since August when I went with my previous boyfriend. The guy and I talked on the phone last night for 2 1/2 hours straight. He asked me to dance at the YSA dance at the last slow dance and then asked for my number. He's so nice and funny and spiritual. I think so far he is a great mix of them.
So yeah :) I also did a few art pieces in the past month. Here they are:
The top one looks better in real life, but I'm very proud of it. The bottom one was my first acrylic landscape.
I'm very excited about my future and very excited especially for tomorrow and next week. I'll do my best to post more often, but I will be working a lot and doing a lot of piano practicing.
Thanks faithful readers :) It makes me happy to see that lots of people actually read my blog.
Cheers,
Ash
