getting a job and school

The only real job I've ever had is babysitting. I've been trying to get a job lately and it's not really working in my favor so far. I'm still trying to get one, I'm just more than a little frustrated because I've been applying and following up and still no job. I know I have to be patient and keep trying.
Planning for school isn't going well either. I have no idea what's going to happen. I called the continuation school this morning and set up an appointment with the principal for tomorrow at 1. The idea is to do choir at the regular high school first period and then there's a bus that takes the continuation school kids to school from the regular high school. Hopefully they have room for me. Otherwise, it's online high school for me. That's the plan B here. I just want to graduate already. I don't care if I walk or not, I just want a high school diploma. Not a GED.
All this could've been avoided, had I actually done my work and remembered to turn in assignments. I know the material. I just forget or I don't do it and get distracted.
I'm not feeling well today either. Emotionally a little bit, but my stomach hurts and my head does a little bit too. I'm going up in my room to read scriptures now. Maybe that will make me feel better.

gettin' buff: episode one

so, under one of the experiences in... knowledge? I think? It says to develop healthy eating habits and an exercise plan and to go about that plan for a certain amount of time. Here's my problem: since I've been out of school, I don't have weight training anymore (thank goodness, there are only so many vulgar, sexist, and mormon jokes I can take from male football players!) anyway since I don't have that anymore, I don't really exercise regularly. I run occassionally and maybe get the motivation to do some sit ups or push ups. I used to be able to run a 6:12 mile no problem. At one time this year, I benched 105 lbs (26 less than I weigh!) and I had great upper body strength. Now, my arms are flabby, I am out of breath easier when I run and my abs have now melded into one. I'm not fat, I'm just out of shape!
So here's the deal. I'm gettin' buff. I mean it. I decided to set a goal to run the susan g komen race for the cure next month with my moms team. I want to run as much as I can in it! So, I downloaded a workout that the people from the army advise to get in shape before basic training. I'll take it a little slower but I will push myself to be better. My goal is a 6:00 mile by race day. I don't know what it is now, but I know it's not 6 minutes.
And, the eating part. I am a bit known for making a pig out of myself. I am cutting back and only eating 3 meals normal size. I am limiting myself to 2 desserts a week (gasp!) and making sure I drink a lot of water every day.
Tonight I start with the push ups and sit ups before bed. So here we go. Wish me luck! Even though I'll be missing church for the race, I will be doing this purely for my mom and I will keep that motivation in my head while I train. So, 27 days until race day! Pray for me :)

Just keep swimming!!! :)

There it is. My dory doll, courtesy of the wonderful, wonderful, fantastically amazing, friends I have. Have you ever seen anything quite so glorious in all your life? Answer: no.
Yesterday I was making my bed and put the Dory doll on my bed and last night I woke up after a nightmare and I was holding Dory. Granted, it was slightly creepy to wake up from a nightmare to see a giant fish in my arms... but Dory is my absolute favorite character from my absolute favorite movie of all time. Finding Nemo is the bomb.com. Don't try to tell me otherwise because people have tried and I have remained faithful to my innocent favoritism over Pixar movies.
Anyway I am almost done with personal progress. I have literally 25 things to pass off this sunday. I am so excited! I'm also getting my patriarchal blessing on sunday and one of my absolutely amazing and fantastic YW leaders/ friends is going to take me there!!!! I am so jazzed about getting this blessing. I've been praying about it since I learned what it was!
Last night I got pretty upset before I went to sleep because I'm really trying to let go of this silly crush I have had on someone for a long time. It's hard because I... well.. it's just hard. And I don't really know why. It frusterates me because I don't understand why. Anyway I went to bed smiling because I prayed and recieved comfort from the Holy Ghost. I know I'll get over it with time... maybe. But I have faith that good will come and happen when I am patient. SO I'm going to continue trying my best to be patient. :) It is a stretch for me but since I got my first special blessing from a good friend of mine, and he admonished me to be patient... I have recieved a feeling of comfort because I know that I will have a happier outlook on life as well as a happier life if I just keep being patient.
So far nothing bad has come from being patient. Just taking things day by day.