Gar! Gasp! GAH!

Okay so time for some teenage vent time...

So the guy I used to like and still kinda do told me to stop talking to him, and I have but I miss him and still like him.
I just found out he met some girl at BYU or something.
I know I should move on so I'm going to and here's how:
I just bought a snazzy new dress that makes me look really pretty. New earrings too and this sunday I'm going to the actual single person ward and maybe I'll meet some new cute guy and fall totally in love or something.
Or maybe I'll meet someone and just be awkward like I always am.
Either way... I hope that this sunday makes my feelings for this past crush go away.
Because I've liked him for almost 5 years.
That is all.
And stuff.

Yay! No more high school... now college...

I graduated high school this past saturday and now I have no more High School. Yay!
Now I'm just trying to get ready for college. I'm going to take some independent study courses for BYU and maybe a class or two at Clark College. I was looking through the Independent study course I want to take first (Anthropology 101) and here's what I learned:
I get 3.0 credits for taking that class independently.
The class costs $471.
That doesn't include books.
The class total will cost 532.95.
So, now that High School stress has gone away... a new kind of stress has opened its doors to me for the first time and I find myself wishing that college was free. Or at least cheaper.
Needless to say, I'm scrounging up all my graduation money, change from my jewelery box, and my resume. I'm applying for tons of jobs and seeking them as much as I can.
I need a job. I need money for college.
I've decided that even though the BYU independent study Anthropology 101 course is expensive, it will be worth it because that is one of the classes I need in my anthropology major.
I'm willing to spend that money, but right now the only problem is getting that money. And soon.
One day as a free adult and I'm already wishing I was still in High School. Money.
Why, money, why?